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So, this is it.

 

Feeling quiet, reflective and tired.

Somehow it seems that however much rest and peace I get, it's never enough, never quenching. I'm really tired. I'm tired of trying, making an effort, thinking, working. I'm even tired of resting, but not being rested. I'm tired of the winter, and the dark and the cold. I long for the summer, the light and the warmth.

I'm tired of feeling uncomfortable, alone. I hate the exertions of the day, the demands of society, its expectations.

 

I'm tired, and sleepy

Goodnight all

And other things beginning with Q. I don't know, I couldn't think of a better title.
For those who've just tuned into my blogs, the reason I'm struggling to find a title beginning with Q is because I kept having problems finding titles so I decided that alphabetical would be the way to go (see blog entry 'Alphabetical', in August sometime).

Well, anyway, I've come in early to do some design work, but there's nobody in the design office and I'm not clever enough to do the work on my own so I thought I'd go to the computer room and look up Brunel or something for my mini German presentation today. Except, I haven't even done that yet because I've been checking email. I wanted to work on the presentation yesterday but the internet at my house wasn't working - not sure why.

Right, I'd really better do some work. Especially if I want to go to Innsbruck next year.
Tchuss!

..which is a good title because it covers all topics, and sounds very intelligent.

It's difficult to write about nothing. Because nothing is the absence of anything, so surely the spaces between my words are saying more about nothing than the actual words themselves. But then is that nothing? Or is it just absence? Because absence is something, otherwise we wouldn't be able to comprehend it.

I tried to think of nothing once, as a meditation technique. And I found it surprisingly easy. I thought of the closest thing to nothing, which for me is water because of it's transparency and purity. And then I cut out the sound of the water, and the sight and then I was thinking of nothing. But I ruined it by thinking "hey! I'm thinking of nothing".

On a lighter note, today I am wearing bright green tights, which is fun. What would be more fun is if everyone was wearing green tights, or just any tights at all. It makes me laugh (quietly) to imagine all the men in the computer room wearing tights instead of trousers (hee hee).

So there you are, some deep reflection and a little bit about tights.
Enjoy!

The most interesting subject in the world - or so it appears. Never before have I had so many comments about one subject!

So, to Hayley's tile problem. I've seen the tiles and I agree that they're not all that wonderful. Aren't they patterned though? It might be quite difficult to paint over patterned tiles. It depends on how much money you want to spend I suppose. But then, tiles aren't that expensive. I would go for new tiles, like the pretty turquoise ones in the shower in Queen's building (why is there a shower in the engineering department?). Or, if you can't afford/be bothered to put new ones on then you could paint over them in a complementary colour to the bathroom.

And now for a contact lens check. I've got to have air blown in my eyes - woo hoo! Not looking forward to this much, especially since it could cost me £25.

Keep with the comments, I'm bad with emails so it's a good way to stay in touch with random friends.

ps. I had a funny dream that everyone in my civil eng class went to yoga together - how random!

That's me! A learner driver. Shortly after the oncoming (perhaps looming - always a good word) properties of matierials lecture, a deadly force will be once more unleashed onto the roads of Bristol (or, more specifically, the roads around the downs). Yes indeed, myself and my good driving instructor, who I believe goes by the name of Pete (can't quite remember), will take to the roads in an attempt to drill some rudimentary traffic laws into my poor tortured brain.
In other words, I'm having my second driving lesson (not counting the smattering I had 2 years ago) this afternoon. Today I aim to turn the car on properly, and to remember to check my mirrors before signalling. Things are going well.

I still have 20 minutes to kill before the lecture, maybe I'll share some of my thoughts on tiling:

I quite like tiles, they come in all shapes and sizes. I do find it quite annoying though when they're used in bathrooms or kitchens, because it's so difficult to clean the grouting. Surely someone could invent easy clean grout, couldn't they? I also think it's quite cool when you look at the retaining walls on the sides of the motorways, and the tile there are hexagonal shaped/ Why is that? Is it for effect or does that particular shape work better? Please leave your comments on tiles.

Such as turnips I suppose. I don't know, maybe if you're in the north of England then they're the same thing anyway.

So, I'm being very swotty with my work so far this term (not difficult because I haven't really been given any work to do anyway). But I've been writing up notes in a neat, organised way, and doing extra reading about management and other soft systems things.

Not much else to say really. I'm going to the gym this afternoon (about 4-ish), which is quite good of me because I'm usually really lazy and can't be arsed. I'm making a special effort this year. So if anyone who reads this uses the gym then good going!

Hopefully for the next blog I'll be back on my usual witty form, tantalising the nation with my thoughts and comments.
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...I'm back! Back in the new-improved form (with added enthusiasm).

It's been a case of long time, no internet connection. Because little brother Keith grew up and went off to uni in Manchester, taking his internet connection with him, and both my housemates and I are too disorganised to have found an internet provider for our house in Bristol yet. It's on my 'To Do' list.

Anyways, thankyou for the comments - it warms my heart to know that someone out there is actually reading my drivel. Johan, you had your chance to tease and insult me at the union, but feel free to add any extra insults as we pass in the corridors. (Thankyou also for your comment Hayl, say hello to Jake for me).
I have no idea who Cap'n'B is (if I should know you then I apologise for not recognising) but I like your description of me as a 'newspaper reading primate' (or something along those lines. I assure you that not all blogs are permanentaly depressing. I consider myself to be quite an optimistic person, so you'll have to go elsewhere for dreary feelings.

I think that about covers it so far, I'll have to write a little more often from now on.
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